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Life, cont'd in the next chapter - Elena's Journal
Life, cont'd in the next chapter
Seeing that I'm in a good enough mood to make an entry thats honest and full, for the first time in a month or so, and I have something to procrastinate on (hoods!), I'm going to lay it all out here.

I'm a failure.

Well, not really. As much as I realize I've had a whole lot of little shit occur to me, I also at the same time realizing how fucking lucky I am. So, with that in mind, I'll just push.. things.. forward. And here we go.

I'm not going to be in school this semester. Hell, I don't know when I'll be back. My plan is a year or two, and to take some classes in the meantime online to bring my 2.9795 GPA back up to a 3.0+. I decided when I got fired that financially, I really can't handle the house and school and work all at the same time. It turns out that it wouldn't have mattered anyway -- I got turned down on the loan after all. :B I've been a less than perfect homeowner, so it probably reflects on my credit report right now. So no school, no steady job, and a bunch of bills coming up. I also have no health insurance and that really worries me.

But! I have my own home. I also have two sewing machines (one is being shipped to me) and a serger, and art supplies to satiate my creative processes. I have four cats. I have awesome friends, electricity, and food. And internet access. And a good family who are willing to help me go to public college when I'm ready to go back. I have all the basics, so I am blessed and I really shouldn't complain. While there's still a nearby precipice, I'm holding on still.

I have the world's WORST work ethic. Like no joke. That's step one -- working on my laziness. Its not something I've ever been good about. But thats really my next goal -- becoming a useful, driven person. I almost had it this summer but all my goals kind of fell apart. But its really no matter right now, because I have the means to get by for now.

SO HAY GUYS DO ME A FAVOR AND ORDER COSTUMING AND WEAPONS FROM ME! (Though you should order weapons from Thane Molnar too) A lot of you are doing that already and it helps a lot. But please, for the love of your chosen deity or swear word try to give me a month's heads up!

I'm looking into real jobs as well so don't give me some spiel about the real world -- i get it enough as it is!

As it is there's some tentative plans between me and some better driven people than me to put together a small business and I'm hoping to be all over it. I enjoy making stuff, and its something I seem to be relatively okay at. So I want to see where this will go :)

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sound_and_furyx From: sound_and_furyx Date: September 4th, 2008 01:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Have you thought about crime?

Also, I might have some weapon/costuming work for you. It's some stuff that I need to be more decorative than functional, I'll shoot you an email with my ideas and we can talk pricing and such. Nothing I need immediately, either, take your time.
akaneko From: akaneko Date: September 4th, 2008 09:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay tinybusinesses! They do stuff.
ulteriormotives From: ulteriormotives Date: September 4th, 2008 09:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
1. You're not a failure. At anything. My sister was never into school and unlike me, did NOT go to college right out of high school. When she finally decided to go to college, she changed her major three times before FINALLY deciding on criminal justice. She's finally figured out what she REALLY wants to do and will likely graduate from honors (which I certainly didn't) and make more money that me. She is awesome. You are awesome. When you're ready, really ready (not just think you're ready), it'll come together and all work out. You'll see.

2. If you ever wanna get away fo' free, you're always welcome here whenever and for however long.

3. Thanks for the shameless Molnar plug! I seriously couldn't pay Cate's daycare most months without him selling weapons at daycare, so I feel you there.

4. I want another tabard. A girl-tabard with the pointed edge like you made Thane, just in regular "new" Sahde colors and not with the black chevron or whatever you call that part. M'hmm. No rush, just whenevah! I pay you good moneh. Also, let me know you're availability 'cause I'd really like to pay you to make girl-tabards for all the ladies in Sahde.

5.*hugs* You're a really cool person, Elena. Don't be so hard on yourself.
arsenic13 From: arsenic13 Date: September 4th, 2008 10:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well if we (I) have a better Idea of what you made mabe we (I) might order stuff.
From: mcreeper Date: September 5th, 2008 03:32 am (UTC) (Link)
Honestly more people should take online classes. Sure wish I'd had that option when I was going to college.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 27th, 2009 03:43 am (UTC) (Link)

Can you help me?

Hey, I know this is kinda weird, but I was wondering if you could help me get in touch with Thane Molnar. He's an old college/SOLAR buddy of mine from about ten years back and I lost contact with him. I finally googled him and found your journal. My name is Adam Davis and if you don't mind either telling him, or me how to reach him, my e-mail is isochronaladam@hotmail.com. I'd really appreciate it. Now if there was a way for me to not feel like I was being a user...
elena From: elena Date: February 27th, 2009 04:41 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Can you help me?

Message forwarded
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 28th, 2009 02:07 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Can you help me?

he e-mailed me. Thanks again! I really appreciate it! You're like an angel or something, haha.
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